Welcome to the Spunky Spirit Podcast. I'm your host, Psychic Medium, Cari Mugz. This is where we
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Nothing is untouchable, but always fun and spunky. I am honored to be on this spiritual journey with
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you, so make sure you hit the subscribe button so you never miss an episode. Hello and welcome to
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this episode of Spunky Spirit. I am Psychic Medium, Carrie Mugs, and today we're going to talk about
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mediumship moments and magical moments and why I kind of do the things I do. So lots of people have
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asked, you know, how did you get started? And I have told my story on this platform before,
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like there have been episodes, you know, different things that happened when I was little. And so
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this is going to be a different take on it. And I'm going to be truly honest and authentic and raw,
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because sometimes, like I have said, this mediumship is not for the faint of heart. It's really not.
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It takes a lot. And I'm not saying that I'm brave. I just kind of got, you know, I started doing it,
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doing mediumship readings for people. And it just got to where it was,
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it snowballed. I would, I did a couple readings for some people and then I did some more readings
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and some more, and they tell people and they tell people and they tell people and it snowballed.
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And then it got to the point where I was booked out so far. I didn't have any choice but to stay in
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because I am honestly, I, there have been moments and times that I have been so, so much anxiety or
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so much stress that I probably would have quit. But because I was so booked out, I didn't have a
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choice because people were dependent on me and I was already booked out for, you know, first it
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was two months, then it was three months, now it's cleared to like eight months. And so now I don't
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have any like, oh, I'm going to quit, I'm going to quit. But there were times in the beginning
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that I was overwhelmed and I was a little nervous and I was scared because all mediums will get that
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way. And if they don't, that's great. But in the beginning, it's not just that it's just that what
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people, you know, if you're a people pleaser, I totally was for a long time. I would, it did
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bother me what people said about me. I, you know, was pretty, so growing up I wasn't religious,
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I wasn't brought up in a religious home. But because of my gifts and because of everything that I
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went through in my, my marriage, I thought that if I, if I joined a certain religion, everything
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would be perfect. And so I did, and then I ended up being in that religion for a really long time.
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And I raised my kids in this religion. And so when I kind of started phasing out and doing my
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calling and doing my, doing my mediumship and doing readings, it was so chaotic. It was so
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chaotic inside of me because part of me was like, do I stay? Do I go? Because they didn't, the two
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didn't coincide. And I felt like a liar raising my children up in this certain religion. And
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it was just a mess. And there were so many times I mean, I would hide, I was like a hidden
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mediumship. Like I would, most of my readings were from people online or over the phone at first
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from North Carolina. And then it got bigger and bigger and bigger. And then I did one or two
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readings, I did one reading and I don't falls my and then it just snowballed. And, and my, and I got
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booked pretty far out and which is great. And I'm so blessed. In fact, I'm so blessed because if
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that wouldn't have happened, I probably would have quit. I probably, but because I'm such a people
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pleaser, and I wanted to be there for people, I want to show up for people. And because they had
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already paid their money, I stick, I stuck with it. And, but there were times when my anxiety was so
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high that I just because of a couple things, one, because of what people were saying, I lost so many
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friends and so many neighbors and so many, like people in that religion, or they don't really
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want to talk to me anymore. Like it's, and they think I'm crazy or they think I'm weird or they
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think I'm off my rocker and, and honestly, doing my mediumship and doing, doing readings for people
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and connecting them to their last one ones, I've actually helped more people doing this than I
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ever did in any kind of position in my, in my, in my religion. And so it, that's why I kept going
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too is because I knew I was making a difference. I knew I was helping people because they would
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tell me they would, you know, just to see, especially like people who lost children, that was, that was
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the hardest, those are the hardest readings to do. And then the fact that I was overbooked,
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like not overbooked, but booked, I felt bad. I felt bad. I felt responsible. There's only one me.
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There's nothing I could do about it, but I felt responsible because these, the, because people
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are booking clear in advance. And I felt like I had to hurry and get more people in, get more people
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in so I could serve them and be them, which is true, but not at the point where an overwhelm
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speed makes me sick. So I got to the point where I was doing four to five a day and I literally
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got sick. Sick spirit was like, you cannot do this. I, it was too much. It was way too much for
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me. I was way too tired. And so I, and then another thing is, is your family, like friends,
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your family thinks you're crazy too. And it's hard because you know, there's a lot, I know,
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there's a lot of my family members that are just like, what is she doing? And I don't care anymore.
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I did for a long time, but I don't care anymore. I've got to that point where I, the last couple
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years, I just, this is what I do. This is how I help people. This is what I, I will, I love to do
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now. I love, but it took a lot of anxiety to get here, but it is so beautiful. And I'm, it's like,
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it's like spirit knew I had to be booked out because, um, and spirit knew I had to build
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boundaries because now I can function. I can function in, in this and I can function in doing
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readings and classes and spirit circles and all the things because it is not for the fate of
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heart. Because if you, people are going to talk about you, they're going to say bad things about
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you. They're going to say you're crazy. They're going to say you're evil. That was the hardest thing
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too is that I was evil. I've gotten lots of messages that I'm so evil and I'm going to hell.
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And honestly, I love, I love, love, love this song by David Archuleta and it says we'll go to
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hell together. If this, if what I do is making people think that I'm evil, if I thought that
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there was any evil behind it whatsoever, I wouldn't do it. I wouldn't do it at all. And I know for a
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fact that there are not fake spirits coming to me pretending to be ancestors, to give people hope
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and to give people love because some of the things that come through, I would never know. My readings
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are very specific and they're very, um, just detailed that things that I would never know,
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nobody would ever know. Um, things like they know if you went to the bank and got alone that day,
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like just some very specific things. And I don't think that I know for a fact that all of that
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evidence is your loved ones coming through telling you there with you. Why would a bad spirit or an
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evil spirit care like care? I know with a shadow with, with a, I know with all of my heart that
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these readings are good and loving and from your spirit guides and not, but your ancestors, your
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loved ones that you lost. I know that they are. And if I ever thought that they weren't, or if I
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ever thought that they, was there a small chance of them being evil? I wouldn't do them. So I,
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you know, so I just want you to know that being a medium is beautiful and it is, I've had some of my
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most amazing moments. All of my, you know, all of it is beautiful and the things that I've seen
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and the readings that come through and they are the most profound, beautiful spiritual things that
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I've ever, ever witnessed and you can't deny it. You can't deny it. If you've had a, you can't,
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there's just no way when, when things come through and you feel that, and you feel that spirit, you
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can't deny it. And once you see it, you can't unsee it. But there have been times that because of
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some of the things that I went through in my childhood or some things that I, you know, that
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my people pleasing and all of that stuff that, and, and caring what people thought and caring what my
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people would think about my kids and my family. Like I, it got to the point where I don't care
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what people think about me, but I have seven kids in what I don't, and they, they want to be successful.
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And what about if people make fun of them because of what I do? And when, once I let all that go,
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once I let all that go, and it's not easy and I still, like to this day, I still will have some
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issues. Like I'll see somebody like a post on my stuff and I'll be like, Oh my gosh, they saw that.
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And because I just barely put my personal page and my Facebook, my Facebook,
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Carrie Muggs page, I started posting stuff there. And some of the people that see it or
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some of the people that look at it, I get a little bit of anxious. And then I think, you know what,
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I don't care. Because I, because this is so profound and spirit, I promise spirit that I would do this.
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I don't know if I promise spirit in a past life, or if it's something that I did in the past life,
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but I know I'm supposed to do this. I've had a reader tell me at one time that I was not,
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I used my gift for different, not great circumstances in a past life. And so I am
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doing it in this life to help all those people that I hurt to help them in this life. And so,
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so now I'm using it to pay back what I once, and I don't know if that's true. I don't know if that's
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true. But I just know that I, I can't every time I felt like I have to quit or every time I felt like
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this is too hard. Every time I felt like that, I always, I've always been pushed to keep going,
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pushed to be strong, pushed to be brave. And so, because it's such a beautiful, beautiful thing.
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And a lot of times people will say, a lot of times in mediums will say they didn't have a choice.
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Like, and I used to get so mad at that because I'm like, you always have a choice, you do.
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I have a choice. I can quit tomorrow or I can keep doing this. But I know in my heart that if I ever
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were to stop, I would crave it so badly because, or I would want to keep, I would, I would miss it.
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Because the parts of it that are so beautiful outweigh the parts that are not. And so, the
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readings where I help people, or I help people realize that they have the same gift, or I help
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people realize that their loved ones haven't gone anywhere, or I help people realize that
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they're, they're also very gifted. Everyone's gifted. And which is your strongest, Claire, and,
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and which is how do you speak to spirit? And when I help people do that, it makes it so
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worth it. And so mediumship is such a magical, magical moment. And I was going to, you know,
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I was going to come on here and give instances of different readings that I've done, and, and how
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they're so specific. But I, you know, readings are so sacred. And, and I don't have the right
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to share those with people unless I've asked permission and they've given, and there have
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been a few that have given me permission. But they're just such a sacred loving space, and,
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and protected and watched over. And I love them. I love what I do now. And I used to,
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like, wake up every morning and just be like, Oh my gosh, I have five readings today. How am I
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going to have enough energy to do that? How am I going to help, you know, and am I going to make
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it? It was going to be okay. And now that I've created what I, what I can handle and what I
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think my clients can handle, it's way more beautiful. And it doesn't make me sick. And it
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doesn't make me, I mean, there's still, the thing is, is I can still get anxiety. I'm not going
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to lie. I can still get anxiety. But once I connect and once I say that prayer of protection,
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it's done. It's like I'm a different person. That connection just makes me, I don't, I don't
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want to say channeling, but kind of, I mean, I just feel like, and I don't feel like another spirit's
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taking over my body or anything like that. But I, the connection is so strong that the anxiety
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disappears. So, and I think the reason why you, you know, some of is, is because for a long time,
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I would want the readings to be so perfect for the sitter or I'd want to, I'd want it to be so
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good for them. And I didn't realize that the spirit, their ancestors, their, their loved ones,
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they brought them to me and I'm working for them. I'm trying to bring across their messages. And
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once I started to like change and make that shift, the anxiety kind of went away. And it wasn't,
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I realized it wasn't entertainment. It was, you know, and I never thought it was entertainment,
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but I just realized that it was a beautiful, profound experience. And, and I was just honored
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to be part of it, not to, I'm not the one who makes it happen. That spirit on the other side
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makes it happen. And I've actually gotten to know quite a few spirits on the other side that
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we're good friends now. And so I have clients that I, I'm good friends with now and I have,
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and I used to not be because I used to not let myself be friends with my clients. And now I have
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lots of my clients that I think of as friends and I have lots of spirits on the other side that I
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think of as friends because we create magical moments. And it's not just me. I'm not the,
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you know, all seeing all, I'm the one who makes it happen. It takes me, the sitter and the spirit
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to make these readings sacred and to make them beautiful and to make them what they are. So
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I, I guess this podcast, this episode is, yes, I have in the past felt
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pressure and, but I don't, and I, and I felt nervousness and anxiety, but I honestly,
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I'm going to be 100%, I don't think that there's a medium out there that hasn't,
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honestly, there's got to be at least one moment in your life that you were anxious or,
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you know, I think, and if they, if they, if you feel like they, I feel like they're hiding it.
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If they, they tell you that they never have and they knew from the beginning and this is what
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they always do, that's great. But I feel like, I feel like that they're, everyone's got their
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issues, right? If their issues aren't the same as mine, it's a different issue. And, and they're
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just really, really better at hiding it. And I'm fully transparent. I'm going to let you know,
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I was terrified doing this. I was terrified. I was going to lose my family. I was terrified.
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I was going to lose my friends. I was terrified. It was like coming out of the closet, out of the
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spiritual closet. And it was the most terrifying chaotic experience. Like it was so, so many times
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that I could feel the chaos and, oh my gosh, does this person know? And oh my gosh, does this person
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know? And what are they going to think? And, and that there are so many times I wanted to quit.
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And the only thing that didn't let me quit is you guys. You guys, my sponsters, my people,
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and you guys have been there for me for the very end from the start to the finish. And you believe
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in my gift. You believe in your gifts and you believe, you believe in me. And even when I sometimes
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didn't. And so I love that. I love that you're the reason why I'm still here because, because I got
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so booked out. I knew I had to show up because I am one of those people that have to show up for
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other people. And so I just, if being a mediumship, me being a medium for the last over 15 years,
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over 15 years has brought so much anxiety and so much peace at the same time. It's so hard to
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explain. And it's just such a roller coaster, such a roller coaster. And, and every, and you know,
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I could say it's an I don't get anxious anymore. And that's true with the readings. But I get anxious
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when I do group readings, not group readings, but event readings, or I get anxious when I
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meet new other, like when other mediums want to collaborate. I, you know, there's always this
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new thing. There's this new thing. You're never, I mean, I always used to think, well, I'll get there
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one day I'll be so confident I'll get there. But then there's always something new, right?
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And, but it's so worth it. It's so worth it. And so if you are contemplating,
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bringing out your spiritual gifts, or you're contemplating even doing anything, like let's
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say you want to be a fitness instructor, or, or you want to create a business, or you want to,
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it is hard. It is so freaking hard. And it, you do worry about what people think of you, you do.
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And it's an influencer, all of that stuff. People will say the meanest things and people will think
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you're evil. And I just want you to know, just keep going, just keep going and doing what you need
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to do, whatever it is, whatever it is that you want to do, be yourself. And because when I tried
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to be like somebody else, it just didn't work. When I tried to be like a different medium,
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or I wanted to be like this medium, it didn't work. But when I just did my thing, and I found
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my people, then everything else just came into place. And, and are there people that, you know,
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you're not going to be for everyone, right? Are there, there's going to be some people that,
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there's going to be some people that don't like what you do. And there have been a couple people
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that I have been like, you know, this just isn't working. I'm going to give you your money back,
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because either I wasn't connecting very well, or they were just so skeptical, or it just wasn't,
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it wasn't jiving. And that's okay, they can go to some, you know, another medium. But,
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but that's only been like maybe on one hand, I can count on one hand out of all the media,
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out of all the readings that I've done. Because I just feel like people come with an open heart,
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and an open mind, and I do the same. And at first it was, you guys, if I could just,
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I think I might, I might figure out a way to ask people if I can take certain moments out of their
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readings and tell people about them, because they're the most awesome things that come out of people's
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readings. It's just some, some validation and, and, and connections that are beautiful, like just
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connecting the dots and having your loved ones know that your loved ones are around. They're just
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very sacred and very beautiful. So, but my thing is, is I just want you to know that I did, I did
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have some reservations at times that I didn't want to do this anymore. And people can be scary.
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But you know what? You keep going. You just keep swimming, just like I always reference Disney
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movies. But you just keep doing it. You just keep doing it. And there's going to be times that it's
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harder than others. And there's going to be times that you're going to want to quit. And whatever
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you're doing, not just mediumship, but connecting to spirit is the most beautiful thing you can ever
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do. And so I tell, I'm telling you to take that time to meditate, take that time to set aside for
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yourself to connect to your guides or to connect to your loved ones or just for you to connect.
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You know, those magical moments when you can just feel the connection, you can feel the oneness,
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you can feel when you're aligned, it just feels good. Life feels beautiful and you're so grateful.
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And those moments are few and far between, but they're so beautiful when they happen. And they're
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what's keep at Esco in every single day. So believe in those magical moments and believe in yourself
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and know that you're going to be able to do this. Like you're going to be able to completely
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do this, whatever it is that you want to do. Come out of the closet, step out of the closet and
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let people know who you truly are. And you know, it takes a timing too. So, you know, if I would
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have done this, married to my first husband with tiny little kids, it wouldn't have worked out.
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It wouldn't have. So it came when I least expected it. And it came at a time when I could do it and
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I could have time for it and I could honor it and I could love it and cherish it. If you're in a hard
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time of your life that you can't do those things, just know that it's never going to go away. What
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yours is yours forever. It's still going to be in your heart. It's placed there for a reason.
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And so do it, just put it on a shelf and do it later or yeah, just do it later because I've had,
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I knew that I had this gift since I was five and there were times when I, in my first marriage and
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when I had my babies, when my kids were little that I knew deep down, I remember when I first
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watched John Edwards, I was like, oh my gosh, I can do that. That's what I can do. I do that. I
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know what he's doing and I finally felt validated. I finally felt like, oh my gosh, because back then
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we didn't have social media, right? It was just TV and I remember thinking, I am not crazy. I,
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I, this is it. So when I, in my younger years, I didn't really talk about it because I didn't
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know what it was. So yeah, I might have friends come out and be like, why didn't you ever tell me?
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I didn't know. I just know I saw ghosts. I know I saw spirits. I know that I knew things before
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they happened. I didn't, you know, I know I saw like, if you came over, I saw your grandfather.
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If I went to your house and I saw your, but I'm not going to tell anybody. I'm not going to be like,
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oh, there's a, there's a ghost sitting right here. When I remember in my other religion, I would go
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visiting teaching a lot and I would have these experiences all the time and I couldn't say anything
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and I wouldn't say anything because I thought I was crazy. But then one time we went to a
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John, I started watching John Edwards and I started reading John Edwards and watching his
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book and I, I'm watching his TV show and I was like, this is it. This is what I am going to do,
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but I can't do it right now. I'm not going to do it right now because I have four little babies
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that I need to focus on and take care of. And so then once they got older and I didn't feel,
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but even that, even then was scary because then I was like leaving. I didn't ever know how I could
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make it fit, right? The religion that I was living in and then this, I didn't know how it was all
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going to connect and, and I knew I'd have to sacrifice one or the other and because the people,
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because the people. And so once I did make that sacrifice, it was the best decision I've ever
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made. I would never, I don't feel any remorse. I don't feel any, oh, you know, you've, I don't owe
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anybody anything and it's the best decision I ever made. And I know that some of my kids probably
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didn't love it, but you know what? I had to be true to who I am. I had to be true to my heart and I
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had to answer the call because spirit was calling me and spirit was, spirit was booking me out.
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So I couldn't quit. Spirit knew, spirit knew I was going to quit. The spirit knew I was going to
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hit, hit walls and I'd be like, I'm done, but spirit knew that. So spirit's like, let's just
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book her out so she can't because we know that her people-pleasing skills are a lot bigger than her
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they'll, they'll trump anything because she'll show up for people more than she will. She's at
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that time I was showing up for my, for people more than I was showing up for me and I was hurting
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myself doing that. But now I'm at the point where I show up for both. I show up for, but I don't
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overbook myself. I can't. I'm just one person and if people don't understand then that's,
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that's not my problem, right? Even though I feel bad, that's just not something I can do. There's
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only one of me. So I guess what I'm trying to say is give you a little background of how it all
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started, how chaotic it was at one time. I remember just being in the shower crying so many times
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because the chaos of what to choose, what the religion or, or the mediumship family or not,
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or lose them. But I will tell you this, the creation that I, the fear created a way bigger
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let down than it actually happened, right? So I created this really, everyone's going to hate me,
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everyone's going to think I'm evil. I created this big story and once it all actually happened,
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it wasn't nearly as bad as what I created in my mind. And so you do you and create something
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beautiful and don't let the fear stop you because yes, it's been hard, but the mediumship, the magical
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moments have been so worth it. It's so beautiful. I wouldn't change it for the world and I wouldn't
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change my new friendships that I've made. You know, it's like Job in the New Testament. He lost
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so much, but he never gave up faith and then he gained 10 times what he lost and that's exactly
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what happened to me. I felt like I lost friends. I felt like I lost, you know, maybe some family,
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but what I have gained is so much bigger and so much more fulfilling and so much more authentic
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and so much more guided by God that it was worth it every moment, every moment. So trust and surrender
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to spirit and trust that God's got you and you're going to do this and it's going to be okay.
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And if there's hard relationships out there or if there's, you know,
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bumps, speed bumps, just go with the flow and know that you're going to be taken care of because
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I can't even tell you how many speed and I'm sure there's going to be more. I'm thinking about
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writing a book about the whole thing and I'm sure it's going to be, there's going to be roadblocks
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along that way too, right? All of it and that scares me and terrifies me, but I'm going to do it.
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I'm going to do it and, you know, adding on to this, I'm going to take trips to, I think I'm
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going to take spiritual trips and take people with me and that terrifies me, but I'm going to do it
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because I know that that's what I'm supposed to do and I know that I have a community that supports
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me and I have a God that supports me and I have a spirit team that supports me and I have clients
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that support me and a family that supports me and it will all fall into place. So I love you guys
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so much and I know I wouldn't be here without you. I wouldn't be and I know that and I owe everything
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I have to you and to, and to spirit to God. So now I think since it's the summertime and I do have
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so much going on. I've told you in the past I have a wedding in August, a baby due in September or
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the end of August and the baby, there's some complications with that pregnancy so we've got
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to be really watching that plus our house is being redone and all these events that I'm doing,
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I am probably going to maybe, I think, do go back to my summer podcast schedule where I do it every
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other week just because there's so much going on. So July and August, I think we're going to go back
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to every other week if I throw in an extra one here and there, that's a bonus, but don't go,
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don't get too discouraged if I go to every other week for July and August and now I forgot what
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I was going to say, July and August. Oh, I am going to, I have a person coming to talk about the,
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look, look at my let them tattoo. If you're listening to it, I was just lifting my shoulder
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and I saw my let them, I got that tattoo because I knew people were going to be talking about me
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and I would just have to let them. I have to let people think what they want to think about me,
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right? So back to what I was talking about because I, you know, oh, squirrel. So I am going to have
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somebody come on and we're going to talk about Akashic Records, Akashic Records. It's like the
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book of life. It's all of our stuff in, I have some podcasts about the Akashic Records already,
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but this is going to have an interview, I'm going to interview somebody who does Akashic Record
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readings because I think that's so interesting. I think it's something I want to do too and
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we're going to have a special guest from some of my clients. If you guys know,
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I'll have some of my clients, you know, some of the people, well, just that I do lots of
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readings for, you know, one of my very, very close clients that my family is, is the Ryan Olson,
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his family and I'm going to have some family members of them, some of his family members
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on to talk about grief and how mediumship helped them and how it helped them move forward. So
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watch for those. Akashic Records, and I'm going to have my husband come and talk about his Bigfoot
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Story because I know I have told the story before, but he tells it so much, he tells it so much
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better and so much funnier and, and I just have to tell you, I love him. He, if I, when I first met him,
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he, I was so nervous about telling me about my mediumship abilities, but once he told me the
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Bigfoot Story and he didn't have any, he just told me straight out his Bigfoot Story and I just
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thought, okay, we'll be fine. We're going to be fine, but he tells it in such a funny way. I love
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it so much. So he will get on, we'll probably have him on and he'll tell us about his fun adventures
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with his Bigfoot sightings. So I love you guys so much and I will put up another event. We do have
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so much stuff going on this summer and I know I said I was going to have an event in August, but
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with everything going on, I will try and do another event that I can, maybe August or
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sometime maybe in September, but it's the, it's, it's all the stuff going on and so just give me,
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give, summertime is crazy, summertime is fun, so just give me some time, have patience and I love
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you guys so much and yes, I am starting that book. So, so give me some ideas of what you want me to
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talk about in the book because it's going to be talking about this transformation that, that happened
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and how it, how it all came to about. So I love you guys so much and remember that you have everything
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you need already inside of you. You are the magic. So I'll see you guys next week. Oh, maybe or the
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week after, probably not next week, but the week after. See you guys later.
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